Monday, September 29, 2008

I should really make a t-shirt

"So how long are you going to be here?"
"When are you going back to China?"
"What are you going to do next?"

Every day, at least once a day, often more than once, someone asks me these questions. And I don't really have good answers. So someone suggested I should make a t-shirt with the answers. It would be so nice to just point to the appropriate responses on my t-shirt each time I'm asked:

a. "I don't know."
b. "I'm not sure."
c. "I have no idea."

I wish I had better answers. It would be so much easier if I had a 6-month, 2-year, or 5-year plan for my immediate future. I would like to be able to smile and respond confidently with my next steps and reasons for my decisions.

But I don't have any answers right now. I don't know what my short-term or long-term future looks like. I just know that I'm supposed to be here right now, in Virginia Beach, with my family, for this season. And I'm trusting that the Father will give me guidance and direction as I need it.

And I don't mind the questions. Friends and family want to know what's going on in my life. And I'm glad that they're interested and care. But it's hard sometimes to have to admit, over and over again, that I really don't know what I'm doing right now.

So, in the meantime, I think I'll make a t-shirt.